Monday, October 15, 2012

For drew kruschel, who will always and forever be my sufjantine<3

Lov u droo

Dexter recap

Ok so the first episode of this new season was really hyped up to lead to a whole lot of whining. Debra kinda deals with it quickly and she sees dexter stab the dude on the table but she doesn't know he's a killer so there's that and then eventually into the second and third episodes, he tells her everything and she isn't dealing with it very well of course. I miss Masuka's sex jokes and especially now everything pretty on edge and not all that dark comedic anymore so we don't see a lot of that. Also what happened to Quinn and deb's relationship awkwardness? It's totally gone and its as if nothing ever happened between them which is sad really cause now Quinn is having dinner with this stripper he likes but she's only after him for his information on a case. Then there's dexters babysitter stupid Aimee Garcia (did she get a nose job?) and Louis her boyfriend. Turns out he's a psycho and now under debs annoyingly watchful eye, dexter can't really do shit. In this most recent episode he finds a way to get rid of him without actually GETTING RID of him.. And that's what you Missed on DEXTER.

Long time, no C

I'll admit this but I have a profile on an online dating site. No, I haven't actually used it for its purposes and no I don't pay anything for it but it's still extremely embarrassing to admit even to myself that it is semi-serious. I try and weed guys out with my sense of humor and I guess it works but I get a lot of stupid replies and messages and it's all hopeless and frustrating. 

Honestly I don't even know what I want in terms of a relationship at the moment. As I was scrolling through my 'matches' I thought about this guy's mom and how proud she must be that her son is on this site for mainly "casual sex" .. Another didn't even have a picture of his face but rather of his mediocre penis. Exciting.

 Ive gotten hit on and asked out so many times lately it's probably at the least once a day but it really does nothing for my self esteem. I miss my exboyfriend and the fact that I've recently made out with one of them only made me feel worse. I don't want another relationship I just want to write about my feelings I guess.  

 A lot of people don't know this about me but I've been diagnosed as bipolar and it hasn't affected me Until  recently. I should probably get medication for it and I've stopped since but idk I'm probably ok without it. My advice to myself would be to lay off guys for a long time. I'll just sell my virginity on craigslist and then use that relevancy to boost myself up to being some sort of alt stand up comedienne like Demetri Martin a little, but funnier and with less drawing.